Friday, February 16, 2007

One sunny winter day...

Well,..I am back...after almost a 5 month hiatus.In the interlude,I was pleasantly surprised by comments, complaints and attention the blog received from some of my regular readers.Infact I realised then that I have readers-who dont just stumble into it, like stones on a road but actually visit the site.
Ask me not why I didnt blog so long.Its certainly not for lack of things to say-in fact there is so much I dont know where to begin.But sloth-one of the sins of man-can certainly take the blame.
When I read my last post again,it certainly shows me the state of mind I was in.But that didnt prevail for long.As I had predicted,within days of writing that, a nice royal old fashioned screw in an exam cleared all the cobwebs of my mind .
What followed thereafter can only be described as an exercise in academic orgy-assignments followed relentlessly,mid terms beckoned with ominous notes,and the finals had started casting their shadows too.To quote Darwin, it was indeed the best of times and the worst of times.However I liked it, for finally I was busy again ,and moreover I had started getting the feeling that involuntarily at least, I was beginning to learn things.
My efforts bore fruit.Long due academic success did come to me, and savour it I did and now hope to continue that. I also had a great holiday,which ended all too early,in retrospect.The fag end of the holidays were some of the most dreariest days ever, spent in a ghost town.
It was almost idyllic.Things were all going as I had dreamed.
And then I learnt some valuable lessons as life just jerked the rug from under my feet. One of the most trite phrases in cricket-"Its never over till the fat lady sings"-came alive before me and I got a crash course on reality.Brings to mind one more proverb-"many a slip 'twixt the cup and the lip".I can tell you that when the cup shatters in mid air and you are left gulping empty space instead of its contents, its not pretty.You go through the wonderful spectrum of emotions.Disbelief,anger,hate,frustration and finally acceptance.And when you finally accept,that is when you pick up the pieces and crudely make another cup ,glad for the fact that at least you can still have some tea even if not a cup full.
I would like to think that I have come out wiser from all that, and as always, I still hold onto the steadfast belief that what I deserve I will get,sooner or later.
I have intentionally written everything in a metaphoric way,for what means so much to me,may with reason ,be viewed by others as a trifle.After all each to his own!
Well now my life is a little empty again, not much work to do, and thats the reason why I turn to writing again.Let me see how the next few months turn out.
Finally,before signing off-something that I noticed just now myself.I have titled this post "one sunny winter day", and then gone off on a tangent.
Well, mercurial indeed.